Oops.. I slipped!
Oops.. I slipped - I gave in after a heated discussion with my partner last night and had a smoke..
Silly, I know, but have been cruising towards it subconsciously for the last week.. Don't start wondering if you have made the right decision, don't second guess the choice you have made and don't even start wondering if you are missing out on something good - its not..
I ticked my slipped up box on this site and reviewed my slip up info and advice, and I think the issue is losing focus on the goal, and cutting my Champix down, without consulting my doctor..
I think it was just a slip up, as it was only one smoke, so am not resetting my quit date, but will if I slip up again - I plan not to beat myself up over it and just keep my head down and rear end up and keep going, being more aware of situations that make me want to smoke..
It did not give me a kick, did not taste nice or even smell nice and was just stupid, being so far in the quit process, but was an old habit to deal with that type of situation - just go outside and smoke and let the situation subside..
Tip of the Day:Be very aware of situations that don't happen often, but where you used to use smoking as a coping or distraction method to get over it - this one snuck up on me and caught me unawares - sort of - only you guys will understand this..
So, I plan to keep going.. I have already started taking the 2 daily doses of my Champix, as prescribed, and will keep at it, and just grin and bear the bad sleep pattern and nightmares, rather than keep smoking, and see if they subside.
I kept 17 smokes from my last box, as a security net, but now think its time to throw them out, as it was late last night, and I may not have gone out to specifically buy a whole box of smokes, and a lighter, just to get over the mood.., so live and learn.. I think we sort of "grow-up" a bit through this journey, and we do mature in our road to a smoke free life - my commitment is to get rid of my old friends by the end of the week, to assist me in not being a slave to these silly cigarettes..
...so today is my day 25 minus 1 day that I messed up, so lets call it day 24 and I will do a do-over on yesterday, as it was a "bad day", but I refuse to let this get me down, and spoil my quit attempt..
24 days is something to be proud of Dave. On previous attempts I always slipped so this time there are no cigarettes in my house. Loved the fact you wrote it didn't taste or smell nice. I still wonder. Thanks for your tips and stay strong.
Thank you for your honesty. Hope that with all your plans in place that it will be another good beginning. Your tips are the best. "Growing up" is a good analogy.
I too have slipped up, not honest enough to acknowledge, so you have provided the incentive to do this. THANK YOU!
I think that my hard wired nicotine wired brain will use any bad event to smoke again.
Non smokers don't understand that -we all do.
Any excuse is a good one.
Willpower is not the answer - it is just beating yourself up all the time. That comes from people who don't smoke.
I am still not sure of the correct answer - guess it will come. In time.
I am going to use some of the tips- call the craving a name( have one- a former coworker who caused me a heap of grief)is a good one. Again, any excuse!
I have a lot of respect for you and hope that translates to respect for myself in beating this evil weed. Good luck with your journey.
"Be very careful of situations that don't happen very often" Absolutely!!! Thanks Dave ,that is exactly what happened to me,it was as simple as bumping into someone who had really hurt me and it totally wiped me. Bought ciggies,smoked a couple,kept them in the house,smoked one a few days later and then i knew it was time to throw them out..but not before i had sprayed them with perfume to stop me pulling them out of the bin! I totally count the days i was off them,i'm on the same day as yourself now,and i think you are right. A slip happens a few days before you even smoke that ciggie and sometimes i create situations to justify smoking,sad but true!
Thanks Dave for all your insights and for an honest account of your day yesterday. You helped me so much as I found today hard. Therefore reading your post today about the fact that it wasn't that great an experience to smoke was timely and very helpful to me. Thank you.
Don't beat yourself up. It was one smoke and I admire you stopped at that one. It means you have quit despite the most unbelievable temptation of trying one. Good on you.
Together we will all make our dreams happen and I think it is worth remembering that it is a dream for us all to 'never ever want a cigarette again'. Like all dreams it will take effort and time and the help of our friends (in this case, our cyber-friends who understand these challenges better than our real life ones).
Hi Dave, I too slipped up about 2-3 weeks into it. I did not restart my quit day either. I am on day 153 now and every day is getting slightly better, but obviously still on my mind as I read this site quite often. I did not beat myself up as I hadn't had one for all the days prior and all the days until now. Ultimately it didn't matter. It only would matter if I started again. All it has done is reinforced to you how discusting they really are and how they didn't help your disagreement at all. But completely understand why you did as we all do. I am going away end of this year with a group of people and last night all I could think of is it won't be as fun as last year when we all met up. It's so ridiculous the hold it has on you. I loved what you wrote in your second paragaraph about second guessing yourself etc. and about growing up, that is exactly what I have been trying to do. Hit the nail on the head. Anyway stay strong, Sharon :)
Thanks for all the support Guys - day 25 today, payback done, and doing fine.. onward and upwards..
DaveWA...I only just read your story. You are so right in telling to expect the unexpected. I never kept any cigarettes. I used to smoke rollies and had a beautiful old, leather tobacco pouch that I loved and cherished. I chucked it in the bin. That was one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life. (I am an old woman). Don't let one slip up let you down. Keep on keeping on. I almost had a smoke the other day....a friend saved me.