Dont listen to the dark side.
I have been off the smokes for 46 days now, and the last few days have been so hard. My husband lost his brother (he died, we didnt actually lose him!) and my disabled daughter has been ill...I felt like i was in one of those old sylvester cartoons with the devil and angel sitting on my shoulders....Just one will calm you down says the dark side...Dont start again says the good side....One wont hurt and you can see if they are really tasting like crap....and on and on it goes for what seems like an eternity but has only been a few seconds. Which side wins??? Yay for me...The good side, this time...But that bad side is persuasive, and hard to resist, 46 days and I am still tobacco free...but its not getting any easier!!! Yet!
"Not getting any easier", but you are on top of "it". It's only you Shtaba that can let the dark side in!!! 46 days for you, that's just great stuff. 51 days for me and I'm feeling pretty chuffed, Let's enjoy a smoke free weekend. Kick any dark moods in the butt, by doing something a little bit different. Sounds like your beaut daughter needs a healthy mum for her journey too.
Stay strong.
Well done Shtaba on resisting the dark side on such a hard time but Doin it has hit the nail right on the head your family need you to be strong and healthy to help them through there journey it does get better and easier trust all of us on here further into the journey and keep kicking the dark side to the kerb because you don't need it I'm 128 days all the best to you.