Major Slip up. New quit date
I hate myself for slipping up majorly. Had two deaths in the family and fell into minor depression and major anxiety. What is wrong with me. I knew there was no such thing as having only “one smoke”. That escalated quickly into 7-10 cigarettes a day.
The self-hate is killing me. Man I feel like crap. This is my third attempt of quitting. I cry, and I hate it but I still reach for that sickening nicotine stick. I know I should focus on other ways to deal with my issues and that I should focus on living a more fulfilled life and that smoking is sooo bad for me.
I honestly feel hopeless.
Here goes nothing.
Oh Kennie please give yourself a break. Im so sorry for your losses. It's ok most of us have all been where you are right now. I take my hat off to you that you are acknowledging not only that it wasn't the best choice but here you are willing to try again. I too have quit heaps of times in my life for 3 & 6 month stints and my best effort was a 7 year quit but i somehow always go back. Not anymore though I am 5 months quit now and I've wised up this time around and now I see those poison sticks for what they are, they're not our friends and they actually give you nothing but self loathing a and shame. So please be kind to yourself lovely and give yourself a break. Just pick yourself up dust yourself off and square those shoulders as today is a brand new day, you can do this you know you can!!
Hey Leeann,
Thankyou for your encouragement. I needed that. I wish you all the best and all the strength on your quit journey.
I will forgive myself for now and literally take it one day at a time.
It's funny, my last quit period lasted 6 months and I thought I had it under control. Guess I left my guard down and compromised. Now I know that when you think you "have it under control" YOU DON'T.
Once again thanks and best wishes to you.
Yes just go back to the basics and focus on getting through one day at a time, if you think too far ahead it can feel too overwhelming. Just keep busy and when those cravings come don't entertain the idea for a second. Just remind yourself you do not want to smoke its just the addiction talking. Yep youve got it guard up all the time. Make time for yourself too to be kind to yourself, a nice walk, long soak in the bath (whatever helps you feel relaxed). You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit, sdome people can only dream of a 6 month quit. Who cares how many cracks at it that it takes us to quit as long as we reach the destination of being free from the slavery. I found slow deep breaths helped ease the cravings and helps calm yourself also when you feel anxious. Stay strong Kennie you are back on the right path so don't t grow that towel in you cannot let the addiction beat you.
Great encouragement people. One day at a time, look forward to feeling proud that day when u wake up snd u didn’t smoke the day before. Then try and do the same thing the next day x
You can do this Kennie. I know how hard it is to quit. I have also tried so many times and always got sucked back in. If you do slip up it is ok just try again.
I found that I had to change things in my life. I started going for walks, I use a vap to help me and I suck on a few nicabate lozenges during the day.
Every day is a new day. I understand that stress seems to make it so much harder but the day you get through a rough day without a smoke you will then be able to get through more and more of these days.
Thanks you guys for the support. Day 3 now. Funny, I have not had any withdrawals yet.
I must admit, I am avoiding my smoker buddies and not going to places where I used to smoke but then, that's such an ex-smoker thing to do. I should be free to go wherever I want and be friends with whomever with no thought, like a non-smoker.
Really need to get into this Non-smoker mind frame. Less fear of relapse, more confidence to be smoke-free.