Its hard buy trying my best
Hi all,
So I decided I would quit smoking Saturday. I did using the 2 mg lozenges and I only had 3 through the day. Sunday I woke up and smoked. Then hid it all day. Luckily hubby went to work at 3pm till midnight and I chained smoked. Felt so gross after and this morning took a 2mg lozenge instead of a smoke. Its hard - breaking the habit. I have to quit for my children. My mom has been a heavy smoker for almost 40 years and they found a spot on her lung. Thankfully after a PET Scan and biopsy it is not cancer. She is now 3 weeks cold turkey so I have to do this. Just wish it wasn't this hard and the mornings are the worse.
Hi Red-67. thank you so much for your comment. My mom has been smoke free for over 3 weeks and she says after her biopsy, she will never have another one again. I hope she sticks to it. So I have had a few urges today but instead of smoking went for a walk (actually a few of them). I don't want to smoke and I want to save that money and take my children to disney land - has always been a dream of mine. My poor kids had to wait in the car while I finished my smoke. I watched my mom in law die of emphysema at 53 due to smoking 2 years ago and I still smoked. I don't want my kids to face that decision whether or not to take me off life support. Thank you so much for your comment. I printed it off and will read it when having an urge. How long have you been smoke free for now?
Thank you so much for all your help. This morning was a bit rough. I actually felt like crying. I thought really - I am going to let a cigarette make me miserable. I'm at work going for lots of walks. Trying my best to hang in there. I read the book years ago and quit for 6 months. Tried reading it again, but it didn't have the same effect as the first time.
Hi Maggie, I have read your comments and wanted to let you know that it was because of comments from Red-67 that I actually got it in my head that I never wanted to smoke again. Thank you Red-67, I don't think I ever told you that.
And Maggie, when you said that you felt like crying, I know how you feel. I felt like crying in my first week because I felt like I had lost my best friend (his name was Cigarette) and I did cry. It was a big sobbing ugly face cry (you know that face?) and boy did I feel better after it. Rather than denying that I felt miserable, I let myself be miserable which I think is called 'owning it' and after crying, I felt free because I realised that I had been kidding myself for 30 years that smoking was great.
Sorry to ramble on, but I hope that I can help others the way I have received help here. Anyway, today is Day 65 for me. You can do it. If I can do it, anyone can. Good luck and I will watch for your posts. x
Wow, yes it a very hard habit to break, but in mindset you can do it.
Had smokers around me yesterday, didn't even worry me, actually now that i think of it...i didn't have the urge to join them.
All the best on your journey.
Thank you everyone for your comments. They keep me going. Had an urge yesterday but fought through it. I'm going for walks and trying my hardest. I just wish I would stop thinking about having a smoke.
Thank you Red-67. I have been doing a lot of research of what smoking does and lung cancer keeps popping up and all these early signs like back pain - well I've had back pain for a month and now i'm not sleeping well and sweating in my sleep. I think its my anxiety kicking in and my mind playing tricks on me. I smoked for about 20 years and quit 3 times in those years - not for long and I feel like I've done irreversible damage and its scaring me.