quit day
Well my official quit day is tomorrow, and its probably been the longest buildup/prequit plan in the universe!!!! (and scaring me) 'Larch' is actually the bach flower remedy for fear of failure!!
I've been smoking for 40yrs, was on about 20/25 per day, throughout this year I have managed to cut down to about 12 ciggies broken to 3/4 length, but not been able to take the plunge yet.
Champix helped but made me so badly nauseous I couldn't stay on them, so am now on zyban, which is doing some fun things to my head!! At least I am finding the weird things in my head really interesting to watch/dissect!
First thing in the morning, pre arriving and when leaving places, breaking up the work day into manageable portions, rewarding housework, after meals. This is going to be a HUGE psychological change after 40yrs!!
Weirdly enough today so far I have only had a half ciggie this morning with my coffee, so am capitalising; normally I would be on ciggie 6 or 7 by now; so I suppose I could say I'm now at 7.5hrs and so far so good!!
I will be back for lots of support and other peoples success stories for inspration, I'd like to see if I can add 40yrs NOT smoking to this end of my life!
thanks for reading this far
just take the plunge you will feel better for it, just get rid of those cigarettes, well all the best.
Go for it Larch! I've got a feeling your sense of humour will get you through the first, and hardest, few weeks. I don't know what using Champix or Zyban is like so I can't comment. But I can certainly identify with how various cigarettes break up and organise your day. How utterly ridiculous when you think about it. I'm 66 days smoke free and to be honest I have no idea how I've got this far. I guess just one day at a time, forgiving myself for things like slight weight gain, irritability, restlessness. It honestly does get easier, the further you get into your journey. Omg, I've nearly written a book!
All the best for tomorrow, be strong.
Hi Larch, Well done, you say you have a fear of failure lol, so whats the worst that can happen if you try to give up, well fail, but I don't think that is true. Having tried in the first place is a win!! I have tried quite a few times but this time I think it is it as my mind set is a lot more focused on quitting. Keep trying Larch1 We can do it :)
john-syd-west, for your information i did not feel like crap for me giving up was the easiest thing i have ever done i had no withdrawals no cravings you are entitled to your opinion and i to mine so let's just leave it at that.
ok no arguments on my thread please!!
So far so good - managed to only have 2 halves all day yesterday, and no ciggies at all today, and I'll be positive and not even say so far for today!!
I think the fear of failing is fear of going through all the angst and withdrawals and weird head thoughts (yep they are good today!!) and then not being successful!! Up until now that thought had stopped me from even trying to try to give up.
We'll just have to make all the effort and pain worthwhile huh! Thanks for all your encouragement, I'm sure I will be back for more....
Hey Larch, your right your mind does go a little crazy. I suppose we just have to think it is only temporary. We have to keep remembering we are NOT missing out on anything without those horrible smelly things. My hardest time is at work. I had a terrible craving for about 15 minutes today, but as usual it did pass. I didn't have a cigarette. It's funny trying to deal with life and it's occassional annoyance without them. But yes I lived, yippee keep posting Larch, I have found this site very helpful :)
Larch congratulations on making the decision to quit you should be proud.
Just remember easy or hard times the feelings and cravings you get do pass as they are only cravings and you will feel better as the weeks pass.
Some of us do it tougher than others it does not make us weak only more determined to succeed.
So all the best to a smoke free life and hang in there.
Thanks to everyone again for their support, I made it through the first day whoo hoo!! 36hrs smoke free now (yeah it might be cheating but I'm counting the first night too!) 2 work days smoke free, although I spent more time on the quit site than working!
Feeling better in the future I hope will be what keeps me going, I had no cough but muscular chest/abdo pains and shortness of breath that I wasn't addressing by fixing the cause, but by doing less!! Not a good option for an active person. So very timely post to read this morning Solo thanks, feeling better and breathing easily is the goal.
Today will be tricky as home all day, so more chance for those sneaky thoughts to try to weasel into my head, at least I don't have the 'post boss' phone call ciggie urge, but I will have to get out and walk around the paddock with some dogs to remind myself about shortness of breath!
sorry about the novel but it helps!! as do all of your comments and messages of support and your success stories, especially the collective 'we can do it together' energy;
'yana' for all the Doctor Who fans, you are not alone....
More urges this morning but a clearer head,
Hey Larch & Solo, I hope your doing well Larch, it is so hard at the beginning, my saviour was excercise, I have slackened off a little but will get back into it as I have found it helps my mental state.
And wow to you Solo, that is really inspiring that you have given up for so long after smoking for 40 odd years, it is amazing you probably wonder why you didn't do it sooner lol. My father gave up in his 60's and has been smoke free for 7 years and he wonders why it took him so long! I agree it feels wonderful to not stink of smoke as you know everyone can smell it on you.
I am still finding it hard to deal with my emotions without cigarettes as all the old issues want to creep out and stress me. So yes my mental state is hard to keep in check. Sometimes I feel fantastic and other times I don't feel like me at all. I know this will pass.
Well Larch I sincerely wish you all the best and yes you should focus on your dogs, I'm sure they will get extra exercise lol. :)