Starting again!
I keep trying and keep failing. Tomorrow is the day- again! I have work tomorrow and don't know how I'll deal witth the day at all- I know I'll probably want one or two in my break. I have been reading Allen Carr's book and it has made me angry- so much that I want to quit this dreadful habit and addiction. I don't want to be a nicotine addict. I am reading so many people have had success with Champix but I don't want to resort to that as I tried it once before and it made me so light headed and I couldn't concentrate on anything. I also don't want to use nictotine replacement stuff as that's like doing the thing twice- first off the cigarettes and then off the patches or whatever. So it's cold turkey for me tomorrow. I sell cigarettes at work and I have found myself looking at people and wondering how old they are and feeling pretty sure they look older than they actually are. I only ever buy one or maybe two packets of cigarettes at a time, so $15 or $30 here and there, but if I bought my weekly supply of cigarettes I would have to hand over about $150- that's a lot of money! I don't even spend that amount on groceries in a week. I'm thinking 3 weeks and I'll be pretty much over it. I guess it's all about putting time into perspective. But the bottom line is I don't want to be a smoker anymore and I certainly don't want to spending $150 a week to kill myself and deny myself other things in life. I don't think the health warnings help much- so much for the new packaging- it didn't change much for me, even though my dad died of lung cancer. For me, I'm concentrating on the money I will save and the fact is that I am stronger than this addiction. I am looking forward to feeling so proud of myself.
There are so many hard times to deal with. The first cigarette in the morning. The one on the way to work, and on my breaks, then in the evenings. So many associations I have to break. I don't want to eat instead as I have recently lost a fair bit of weight and I'm not keen to put it back on. But from what I've read the craving for a cigarette resembles hunger, and if you don't smoke you'll eat instead.I feel positive but also doubtful. Having tried so many times before I know what I'm in for but I'm trying to be positive. I am so sick of doing day one over and over.
Hi I,m like you can't have champax and don't want patches, in the past they have helped a bit but I would rather be off everything which will make me more confident. The new packets don't do much for me either. The one add that did was its hard when your doc tells you you have cancer but how hard will it be to tell your children. I was supposed to give up may 31st but have just given up today so maybe we can encourage each other since we are doing it at the same time. On the way to work have a packet of muesli bars in the car to munch on the uncle Toby's body wise are recommended by the heart foundation if your worrying about weight, or have water you do get used to it and it helps your skin. Or like me come on here when you get a craving everyone here is so supportive and it reminds you to stay strong. Good luck.
Thanks Humble. I only have a seven minute drive to work so should be able to deal with that but the first thing I think about whenever I get in the car is to have a cigarette. I already drink a lot of water, always have. Today I did cut back on my cigarettes on my breaks. I'm now thinking Monday may be the day- first day of the week and all that. To Dr Feel Good- I will have a look at quit4good. I tell people I know- friends and people at work that I'm quitting and then fell so disappointed in myself when I tell them I haven't managed to do it yet. My partner also wants to quit and I feel bad as I'm not supporting him.