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I've received a lot of help from this blog as well as i-quitsmoking(dotcom) who has a lot to say in the first 30 days and no more after that. After 30 days, I started coming here more often because I wanted to see how people were feeling.
I want to help someone if I can because its only right that we give back to others since others have given to us. I want to remember the first day I recently quit smoking after having smoked for more than 30 years.
I stopped smoking at about 5:30 pm on Wednesday 2nd of March 2016. I'd just had a cigarette in my car and quite honestly I was overly stressed and found it hard to breathe. Smoking definitely did not help at all. I was in the middle of a legal battle and faced uncertain problems in my business. I had lots of reasons to be stressed and smoking was (I thought) a way to counter stress. Of course I'm not that stupid and I know that smoking 40 cigarettes a day for several decades does not reduce one's stress. In fact, the older I get, the more the cigarettes/nicotene seemed to weigh on me. I'm really an addict in the 1st degree! I know that smoking does not help me at all and I've hated myself for not being strong enough to give up. Actually, at the time I was smoking I did not know that I hated myself so much. How do I know now that I hated myself? Well, its because I am pleased when I don't smoke. I'm on day 53 without a cigarette and I am pleased about it. This is progress for me and I want to keep it up for the rest of my time. Whats wrong with that?
Well, on June 16th I gave my packet of Dunhill Reds to a friend and told him " Thats it!" .. "I am quitting as of today!"
Some people say that the first day is the hardest. I'm not sure about that but for me, the first day was definitely a blur. I felt so bad from all those years of smoking and my lungs had not relaxed for so many years. At the back of my mind was the thought " I need to make it through one day!" I knew that if I could make it for 24 hours, then I go to the next hurdle which is 48 hours. I managed to do this every day, sometimes white knuckling it and when I got urges to smoke I either got something tasty to eat or went for a long run or a walk.
I don't know whats going to happen in the future but I think that I stand a really good chance of becoming an ex smoker for the rest of my life. I want that, so its not wrong to wish it!
I know that when I am smoking (or taking any form of nicotene) I am feeding an addiction. I believe that in the middle of my addiction my will power is not very strong because I crave for nicotene. Its only when I've stopped taking the nicotene and had time for my lungs to relax and my breathing feel better do I really have the capacity to sit down and decide that smoking is really something I don't want to do.
Here is the crazy thing about many smokers. The heavy smokers find any excuse to smoke. We have to smoke at every meal, every event and every break and even in between breaks. Making decisions always require a cigarette. So, those who want to quit smoking have to light up and consider whether or not they want to smoke. Thats what my problem was. Actually, deep down inside I have always wanted to quit but I've never given myself a chance. So, for me.. the best advice for the first day is not to think too much about why you should quit. You should simply quit because its good and then get enough "nicotene free" time behind you to ask yourself do I enjoy not smoking. I think most people are going to enjoy the benefits of being smoke free, especially those of us who are older and have never given our lungs a break!
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