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Fullofhope
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28/08/2015
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Dreaming

Posted in Quit experiences 26 Oct 2015
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I wanted to share the strange experience I have had in the last 24 hours. I have been very lucky as none of my friends smoke so I have not had that extra temptation a lot of you have had. Yesterday, I went to a party and there were heaps of people smoking and it was the first time I had to talk, al length, with people who were actively smoking. That seemed to go well and that topped off a weekend of relative peace.

Last night, I dreamt so vividly (thank you Zyban) that I had smoked four cigarettes. I even dreamt that I had come on to this site to tell you all that I had smoked. I woke up relieved to know I had not smoked but today, ALL DAY, I have had the strongest, most insistent cravings ... just like the first few days of quitting. It reminded me of what a psychological addiction this is. I didn't need to smoke (just dreamt it) to have the symptoms of a relapse. It is the neural pathways and not the nicotine which is playing with my brain. Never forget, we are fighting a formidable enemy here and one which does not give in easily. What we do know, thanks to the good people here, is that we are more than capable of beating that enemy.

Am hoping a quiet night will still my pathways!

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  • nodrah October 27, 2015 | 12:39
    how crazy is that....good on ya for ignoring that crazy feeling as always
  • Jenny S , South Western Sydney October 27, 2015 | 20:41
    Amazing, I have spoken to other people that are long term non smokers and they say that never goes away, now that is scary
  • Nannette, Hunter New England October 27, 2015 | 20:56
    Hi FOH, I hope my post didn't start you thinking along the smoking trail. Well done for remaining so strong. You are going so well.I wanted to say a huge thank you for the beautiful kind words you left on my post. It just reminded me that we all soooo need each other's support on this journey. unfortunately my eldest daughter was hospitalised over the weekend with complications arising from her type 1 diabetes and I'm afraid it flawed me.life is precious and very fragile. Huge hugs to you for all your support Thankyou xxx
  • Iwillbeatit, Western NSW December 19, 2015 | 20:41
    Found your post. None of my friends smoke either so that has also helped me. I was exposed for the first time to smoking (after 48 days smoke free) at an xmas party last night and it went great and I did not dream of it or smoke. I had a fleeting thought but stayed strong. The only thing is my throat is sore today - passive smoking perhaps. As long as it is only in a dream/nightmare I will be happy. Good luck to all

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