5 days! I've gone 5 days without a smoke, but I'm not excited I don't feel proud and honestly I don't know why I even bothered?
Fact1. My health was never a driving force to quit
Fact2. I couldn't afford it anymore
I made myself a promise that after a fortnight I would treat myself to a shopping spree to celebrate with some new clothes- not going to happen coz my car broke down and now I can't afford to reward myself.
I was late and believed I was pregnant- apparently I was wrong so I'm not doing the right thing for my unborn baby (coz it doesn't exist).
I have 3 kids and when life gets to real I go out for a smoke to get away, without smokes I can't get away and if I do step outside it's make the urge 1000 worse.
My partner refuses to quit and keeps dragging his smelly butt inside and plonking his smokes RIGHT NEXT TO ME!!!
I've never felt like as bad of mum as I do now, I can't keep my temper or emotions in check I'm sleep deprived from withdrawals and find it hard to get up in the mornings to get my kids to their activities etc. yeah ok when I was smoking I'd disappear for 5 mins every few hours but atleast I didn't constantly let my kids down.
What to do when all your reasons/ motivations to quit get taken away?
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