Stories and experiences by: manchild

I'm two days into my quit. I'm just writing here to remind myself that it's better to quit . I am not stinking of cigarette smoke and dont have to identify myself as a smoker anymore

I quit for more than a year. I was feeling really good. Then I went out at night with some friends and was offered a cigarette (this was not the first time I was offered and I refused in the past but somehow I gave in that particular time) but now I am back on the cigs and I hate it. I did not follow my own advice to stay away from that first cigarette. Thats all it takes - just one - and you can...

I don't expect all the smokers I know to think I am doing something good. Some will think its good and these are the people who are happy for me. There are sadly a few who are not going to cheer you on. One of my "friends" has put obstacles in my way instead. Should I really call him friend? This is what he said: "Don't you know that some of the nicest people are heavy smokers and drinkers? M...

I am over 1 year without a cigarette or nicotine in any form. I would like to thank the people on this forum (all of you who gave me titbits now and again and who encourage/d me) If you have just come here and are reading this and want to give up smoking then my advice to you is doing something great for yourself, something remarkable against all odds and - GO FOR IT!!!!! Run for your life!!!...

I am 341 days without any nicotine and without a cigarette. If you are new to this site and have just decided to quit, then I recommend that you learn everything that you possibly can about your addiction. I've quit smoking in the past but this is the first time that I've combined quitting cigarettes and arming myself with knowledge about my addiction. I was with smokers today and they both knew ...

I have not reached 1 year without nicotene yet but I want to. Actually, I don't want to smoke ever again. I think that I can only keep that promise 1 day at a time, so I keep it simple and think yes, today I won't smoke and that I can achieve for sure. If you just gave up smoking, then don't think about tomorrow either, just think about getting one day behind you, then two - because 1 +1 = 2. The...

In the past, I went from smokes to vapes and then back to smokes again. I did not know that the real culprit was nicotene until this time round. I'm 50 years old, started smoking when I was 14 and I quit cold turkey because I'd had enough. Of course smoking has caused damage to us and one of the reasons some of us don't quit is because we think that its already bad enough, so why bother! If you h...

I quit 235 days ago. A few weeks after I quit I was posting here and eagerly reading other people's posts, especially posts from those of you who were going through the same things. I'm normally a heavy smoker (2 packs a day) and have been smoking since I was 14 years old. I'm 50 now. Giving up smoking (and nicotene) was a great move and I don't regret it one bit. I can still remember some of thi...

Just checking in to this community to tell everyone that I am off the cigarettes and any form of nicotine for more than 200 days. A few months ago I felt my upper body was incredibly stiff but I've been massaging/rubbing/pulling/vibrating my upper body using a common waist belt and can feel the tension releasing over time which is a great discovery as I never knew how useful a belt could be to...

I've hit 6 months Yay. I also self discovered by experimenting for a long time that I need to massage under my armpits and around that area. I'm using a belt to do it and have been feeling so much less tense after releasing the stiff muscles. I'd never of made these discoveries if I was still using nicotene in any form. Blessings tof all of you

Just popping in to let you die hard quitters know that I'm still quit. I'm not even thinking about smoking these days. To be honest, I want to regain as much normalcy as possible. I know I've done lots of damage to myself both physically, mentally and possibly spiritually by smoking for so many years (sometimes feels like a rusty old clock) but I'm resolved to not dwell on that because starting a...

When I was smoking I did not notice things that I am noticing now. For example, I notice now that I need oxygen and plenty of it. I never really had a chance to notice this when I was pounding smoke and nicotine into my body. All I ever noticed as a smoker was not feeling right and the solution was to have another cigarette. I noticed the other day that I have a pinched nerve because it was hard...

After 127 days nicotine free I am drinking all sorts of teas to keep my mouth, my tongue and the back of my mouth busy and lubricated. To be honest, it looks like my smoking habit has been replaced with regular exercise and lots of tea drinking. I've given up coffee for several weeks and am also staying off the booze. I actually don't want to drink anymore and that's my choice and I don't expect ...

So I woke up this morning at 6.am which is totally out of character for me as a smoker but now its becoming common. In fact, since I stopped all nicotine products /smoking I've been waking up early almost every day. I've also been sleeping better. I've not researched it but I'm sure that nicotine screws up sleep. I know from my own body that there is at least an indirect link if its not directly ...

I am 120 days without nicotine in any form. Things have changed tremendously in my life, not just because I put down the cigs but I've also been through things that would want to make people smoke even more . I gave up smoking at the critical point in a law suit where I was the defendant fighting for a large percentage of my earthly wealth. I survived it and think I did pretty well convincing my ...

Well, some time back I was aiming for a few days, then a few weeks and now I'm close to 4 months without a cigarette or any form of nicotine. I have not felt like smoking for quite some time. Maybe everyone is different and for some reason I don't crave cigarettes now. Maybe I'm beginning to hate nicotine and how its cheated me, just like I now don't want to have anything to do anymore with peopl...

Its possible to be deceived about our nicotine addiction for years and even decades. In my case I've been deceived by the Nicodemon for more than 3 decades. In the same way, I've been deceived about people in my life. In someone's business there was a guy stealing from the owner for years and the owner never saw it. At one point (the owner) thought he was not trusting the guy enough so he kep...

Some people can't understand why giving up smoking is not easy for us. They think its a matter of just not smoking. If that was the case, then why would we need blogs like this? Why do we need compassion and understanding from other ex-smokers? There is so much falsehood and lack of understanding in the world but all we need is for someone to understand us, especially if they've been through som...

Yes, I've quit for 110 days according to the myquitplan on this website. Yippee! Should I light up and celebrate? Haha! .. Of course not! What should I do? Maybe I should tell someone about it and feel good about my accomplishment. So, I'm telling you guys that I've made it thus far! I've given up coffee for several days now. I've noticed that I am addicted to stimulants whether it be nicotin...

Yesterday I literally blew my mind and body with too much coffee. I'll be honest and share with everyone that I had to drink a bottle of red wine and lots of water to counter the effects and it took the rest of the day to even get back to anything normal. I don't want to be in that situation again as I'm stressed enough as it is with what is currently going on in my life . Even if my heart is bei...

Its over 100 days without nicotine in any form. I've been reading about nicotine's ability to nullify the effects of caffeine which means that if us smokers quit the cigs, we probably need to halve the coffee intake. Yesterday I drank 6-7 cups of coffee in the morning and by lunch time I was seriously overdosed with caffeine and I mean SERIOUSLY overdosed. I'm ok now (24 hours later) but its time...

The best time is right now. Why wait? I quit cold turkey over 100 days ago. I was born in the 60's and normally smoke 2 packs a day and have been smoking since the age of 14. I simply quit nicotine in all its forms , white knuckled it for the first few days and then started to train my mind on our addiction by reading lots of posts about the addiction on a regular basis. Its the mental/spiritual ...

I've not posted here for a while. I've been busy with a whole bunch of things which I don't think I'd be able to handle so well if I was still smoking. In the last 99 days I've learned more about people and my life than the last few decades. Lets say I've been driven to my knees. Its been a shock for me knowing that I've been so naive in my life about so many things but I'm discovering my simple ...

Over the last few days I've had to spend time with smokers. This means that their passive smoke is all around me. Funnily it seems to bother me less now and I don't know why. I know that we are all different but honestly I am not really having any cravings for cigarettes. Well, that previous statement could be misleading because I think that I am beginning to see my brain is telling me I need som...

I make no excuses for the fact I believe that there are spiritual answers to things that baffle many in this world. If you don't like the word spiritual, then call it what you want but how can we say we've ever been logical people if we've always known how bad smoking was and is for us and at the same time we simply can't quit. If you were looking at this from a purely medical perspective then it...

I'm over 80 days without a cigarette or any form of nicotine. I'm beginning to see my body react differently to life. I'm sleeping better (even though I am going through terrible betrayal) and I am functioning on a different level. Its something that my body has not experienced for a very long time. Its like I am discovering a different me. I am beginning to like this new "me" as well and beginni...

Some of you will know me here. I'm now on day 80 nicotine free. In the first 6 weeks of quitting I started putting on a lot of weight. Now its really coming back to normal and I'd like to share why I think so. This is just my experience so it may not be everyone elses. I am writing this for the benefit of those who want to know one man's story. As a heavy smoker I always needed my sugar, especia...

I watched a movie trailer recently and they said something like " Just because there is no war, does not mean we should stop training for battle!" I think this should apply to life where we try to learn and understand our enemy so that when we are thrown back it won't be such a massive blow like the first time it happens. Nicotine addiction is sneaky and we ought to know better and be as wise a...

I want to post here and thank everyone who has helped me reach day 74 without a cigarette. I am going through a real tough emotional time now and I have a great excuse to try and cure the pain by smoking but nope, no matter how bad this pain is (feeling ripped apart inside) I want to live through it and come out the other end smoke free. Smoking is going to make this pain worse - thats for sure. ...

Today I could easily take up a cigarette and smoke because so many people around me smoke plus I'm going through some troubles in my life with someone's betrayal. I know that the emotions inside of me are a great trigger for me to smoke again but I've not smoked. I'm not craving for cigarettes today but I feel like I'd like to take something to make the pain go away. I've got all the justificatio...

Today I am 72 days without a cigarette. I am 72 days without e- cigarettes, nicorettes or any form of nicotine. This is the first time in my life that I have consciously thought about giving up nicotine. It is the first time that I have been very aware that I am addicted to nicotine and not cigarettes on their own. I don't think there is such a thing as tobacco that contains no nicotine. I know m...

Smoking makes me tired. Smoking makes me lazy. Smoking makes me procrastinate. Sometimes I've needed to do something for my family but I missed the opportunity because I needed to go for a smoke. I'd be sitting in a restaurant eating with the wife and kids but had to be the first one to leave to go outside, smoke and wait for them to finish. People can start to think, "How come Dad always has to ...

I like this forum because there is no need to be shy. I registered using gmail and made up a nickname for myself just like many of you. I can post here and don't have to worry about privacy. So far, I've not seen anyone judge anyone else here and I guess if that happens then the community itself will expel those kind of things. I believe there is something powerful about these kind of communities...

I've had these urges to satisfy a craving over the last couple of days. I'm not sure any more if my cravings are less than they were while I was smoking but I think they probably are. I have a hunch that my cravings right now (even at their worst) are nothing compared to what I had when I was using nicotine. If I want to find out, I guess if could conduct an experiment. I could smoke a cigarette...

40 cigarettes a day is a heavy smoker if you ask me. I really do smoke all my cigarettes as well! I puff away until I get to the filter so I'm not wasting that extra drag. I need to get one more drag out of that cigarette. I am a real addict and don't care if you're judging me for smoking too much. All I want is to be able to smoke and to be left alone. Lets have a drag off our cigarettes and lea...

I borrowed this from an article - "Introducing any amount of nicotine back into the system immediately ramps up the addiction. Relapsing immediately places the quitter back at square one in the withdrawal process." So today its day 69 smoke free and nicotine free. However bad it feels I really think I should not want to go back to square one in the withdrawal process. I'm going to lose all ...

Whoahh! Today is probably the worst day for me in regards to recent cravings. Its day 68 and I feel my cravings are peaking again or something like that. This could be another wave and I just need to hang on. I was reading the following about this somewhere else From another website on 60,90 days etc. There is a word they've given called "Letdown".......... .......But most of us do go thr...

There is a guy I met over the weekend who knows that I quit smoking recently and he asked me jokingly " So how long have you quit for now?" I replied " 65 days!" He then went on to say "Its not enough, you need over 1000 days!" This guy is someone I used to smoke with. Its almost like I've denied the faith and become a wuss while he is still some cool dude with all the fun.. LOL! To be honest, he...

I've heard people say that they went back to smoking/nicotene products because they were putting on too much weight as a non smoker. Its true for me because after giving up smoking for 66 days, I've put on quite a bit of weight. This morning I could hardly fit into my pants but I know its not the end of the world. Putting on a bit of weight is far better than being caught in a maddening nicotene ...

A few months ago someone made a comment about me to someone in our local community saying that I'm smoking 40 cigarettes a day and blowing my head off. The comment was meant to be funny but when I found out that this was being said I felt a bit angry and hurt. I thought to myself "Is that the only good thing they have to say about me?" I guess that is the impression I was giving everyone! Funny ...

I normally smoke about 40 cigarettes a day. I guess each cigarette takes about 5 minutes of my time. That means that I normally take 200 minutes per day to smoke. 200 minutes is over 3 hours. This means I am engaged with the smoking for a large percentage of my waking day. If I stay awake 12 hours a day, then smoking takes up about 1/4 of my day. I've now been off cigarettes for 65 days which mea...

There have been times over the last few decades where certain ex-smokers have told me about the fact they've quit. To be honest, I don't have good memories of those "quitters" I've always felt that most of these quitters were self righteous and had no empathy for me as a smoker. The advice was always cold and clinical. No-one said things to me like "I know how hard it is to be a smoker etc" It w...

After more than 2 months smoke free I made it through one more day again. I'm alone right now. Its later evening and this is one of the most difficult times for me. I've written here quite often but I won't apologise for it because thats what we are here for. We are different from others by the fact we are addicts. We are here to share our quit experiences. I want to increase my weaponry so comin...

Tomorrow I'm going to be 60 days smoke free. I must say I am humbly proud that I've managed to stay off the puffs and any form of nicotene. As for eating, that is another topic altogether. I need comfort food now and again. I also need comfort in general but I guess that is a basic human need which I somehow tied to smoking in the past. Recently I've managed to hold back the weight gain a bit by ...

This morning I woke up then found myself walking around the front room thinking to myself what to do. Normally at this time I light up and smoke. I felt the urge to fill something, so I ate breakfast but then still felt some nagging need. I decided to take my own advice so I got on my son's bike and went around the block for about half an hour. During the ride something incredible happened. I w...

Today I'm really on the nicodemon rampage and have the positive energy to write after a nicotine free 55 days. I guess I am being powered by righteous anger and want to do something to help my fellow man who has helped me. This is a quit smoking forum but I've learned so much recently about what my real problem is. What is my problem? Is my problem really just smoking itself? I learned this word...

OK, I am on day 55 now. I'm not getting serious withdrawals anymore and believe I can resist one day at a time but I still crave for a cigarette now and again. I'm hoping these cravings leave me completely after 3 months. How are some of you others doing who have more days behind you? Let me/us know. I did a search on google and found the text below this paragraph which encouraged me to keep o...

I am going to be 50 years old this year. I've spent most of my life smoking. I starting smoking when I was 14. I gave up smoking for a few years in my late teens and once or twice in my 30's for a while but overall, I've smoked for about 30 years. This means that I know more about a life filled with smoke than a life without it. My whole life has been surrounded by cigarette smoke. Its my smoke, ...

I've received a lot of help from this blog as well as i-quitsmoking(dotcom) who has a lot to say in the first 30 days and no more after that. After 30 days, I started coming here more often because I wanted to see how people were feeling. I want to help someone if I can because its only right that we give back to others since others have given to us. I want to remember the first day I recentl...

Today I am on day 51 without a cigarette and I am glad I have not smoked for this time. I drank too much booze a few days ago and lost control a bit and feel fragile now. I am feeling guilty at the moment because sometimes I do things I regret (don't we all?) when I drink but I am happy I can breathe and am not smoking a pack of cigarettes in the hope that nicotene will cure my guilty feelings....